Kitten asked me to describe her briefly so that she could use that as a basis for at least one blog entry. As her baby mama, I feel like I know her pretty well so I’m in a good position to do so. Let’s get to it, shall we? The words I would use to describe her personality are dichotomy, juxtaposition, and contradiction. What I mean by that is she will go back and forth between two opposite personality traits and often leave me guessing or scratching my head in confusion. I’ll give some examples.
When Kitten decided she wanted to live in the same city we were in, she had her transfer request in at the post office and was listing stuff that she didn’t want to move on Facebook within two hours. So one would almost think impulsivity and quick decision making was a dominant trait, but I’ve gone shopping with her. We spent an hour in one aisle of a store looking at notebooks. We spent a half hour in a grocery store picking out just the right ranch dressing. There is a very deliberate nature to the most mundane of decisions.
Kitten says she hates kids, but got excited over a cute baby when we were out to eat. She’s always reminding me that I’m a super nerd and that she’s cool and went to a lot of parties back in the day; yet she does math for fun, quotes Star Wars, plays RPGs and strategy games, and unknowingly road rages in iambic pentameter.
She is strong, but not tough. She has had life beat her down and she’s still here. Still standing. Still going strong when others would have given up ages ago. But at the same time, the smallest of things can majorly affect her. I’ve seen her break down over the notion that she has a single white hair on her head (she doesn’t, and I learned the hard way that she also doesn’t take kindly to jokes) or over disagreeing with her on whether or not a singer is good.
Kitten is very magnetic and can engage just about anyone in a conversation, but gets justifiably freaked out around new people or in crowds. At the same time, she has said that she likes getting lost in crowds too. She likes cities, but misses the stars when she is actually in one. Kitten has seen the worst of people but tends to want to give people a chance all the same. She hates people, but yearns for acceptance and belonging. She claims to be a bitch, but is, in fact, one of the kindest, most generous people I know. Especially towards her daughter, my husband, and me.
I think what I’m trying to say through all of my various examples is that she’s difficult to describe fully and completely. She continues to surprise and amaze and yes, frustrate me daily. I wouldn’t change a thing.

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