“You only fail when you stop trying”

“Don’t wait until you reach your goal to be proud of yourself.  Be proud of each step you take toward reaching that goal.”

This was quoted by our Vice President. It is a little inspiring when trying to achieve excellence and to better oneself.. Our company is doing extremely well and growing very fast so its unlimited overtime right now. I am happy to be a part of this company, its nice to have a job I can take pride in and not always have to be waiting to deal with management. Management is very respectful here. I am lucky to have a job that I enjoy and am proud of but I do not have my life centered around it. I think too many people look for fulfillment in work and forget about living their life as a whole.


I am trying to be optimistic about finances. I do not think we will be getting a Christmas bonus at work and I was sort of really hoping on that for getting ahead. I am not too terribly in the hole, I just won’t get where I wanted to be. I just need to keep on pushing, I know I will make it to where I want to be financially eventually. I signed up to be a human guinea pig for a study. Since no one has taken my previous shitty apartment, our company won’t be giving out a Christmas bonus, and I wont be getting as much back from my college dispersement as I was hoping, finances just became a bit more difficult.


Funny side story of how my mind works. I went out to eat with my daughters mom tonight. It was a tavern neither of us had ever tried before. I briefly looked at the menu online and thought it looked good, the typical foods of pizza, burgers, salads, and pasta. Well, when we got there it seemed a bit loud, after all, it was a tavern. It was very pretty but took about 20 minutes for us to get sat since its new and popular. Well, everything was going okay until I looked at the menu. I am already a very indecisive person but the menu was mostly BYO. It had BYO pizza, BYO salads, and  BYO burgers. There were tons of choices for each section as well. The table had slips to fill out for the BYO.  It took me quite a while to look through the menu so I decided I would just build my own burger, safe and cheap. I thought about the pizza but there was no size so I didn’t know how good of a deal I was getting and I didn’t know how well the salad was chopped up. I chose a burger, bun, cheese, lettuce leaf, tomatoes, pickles, and then I got to the onions. There were raw onions or caramelized onions. If I chose caramelized onions than I would be better off choosing the shredded lettuce instead and using a special sauce but then it would taste weird with the tomatoes and pickles. If I took those off then I would want a pretzel bun rather than a croissant bun. I would also than need to change the cheese. But than if I chose the raw onions than I would literally be paying 13$ for a regular cheeseburger. BUT THEN I saw onion strings and if I chose onion strings then I would want bacon and the special bbq sauce but then would need to change the cheese again and add coleslaw. But if I did that then I should change it from a hamburger patty to a crispy chicken patty. All of a sudden my mind couldn’t think straight and the room started getting really loud and I got really cold and lightheaded and felt like crying because of the stupid onions. I then started thinking about the time and how I was feeling so rushed because my daughter would need to be going to bed in a couple hours and it would take me an hour to just choose my toppings. I ended up calming down and getting a burger that was already on the menu, it was very good. I ordered onion rings and those were amazing. I ended up having a couple beers while having a great time.


I still have one last speech to do tomorrow, a persuasive speech. I have yet to choose a topic. I am so bad at deciding on things yet I hate rules. I guess I should get started on that…(I will probably watch tv). Well, have a good night everyone. I will try to write more tomorrow. Be good to yourself and strive for excellence. Goodnight!

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