Post IUD removal, Day 7 (updated)

I can’t say today has improved much. I moved my appointment from yesterday to next Friday, so two weeks post removal. I was in bed a majority of the day yesterday, actually the past few days now, I think, I honestly can’t really remember. I just don’t have the energy to get up and my head always hurts. It has been a week now since I have had my IUD removed. I am trying to keep a routine of some sort, I just have no energy. I barely even have bursts of energy or highs anymore. I just feel like I exist and thats it. My mind is in a fog and I feel a pressure in my head. I think my dog hates me. If I feel any emotion its just sadness for no real reason at all. I was hoping to enjoy my vacation but it has started out fairly shitty. Not caring makes me feel like shit for not caring.

I am tired of purging already, I did again last night. The last thing I need to feel is a streppy like throat. That’s what it makes my throat feel like, I don’t know if thats how everyone who purges feels. I am sure that is causing some imbalance as well. There’s no reason to it, its not comforting at the slightest, not even the familiarity. In fact I don’t feel anything. I can’t even thought process. I think that’s the worst part actually. I have always been able to break down my thoughts and emotions to where they make sense psychologically and I can’t. I have taken two hours to even write this small amount and it makes no sense at all. I can’t have a straight thought process. I want this so bad to be over, I want to feel something.

I think maybe I should take Bailey to PetCo today, let him buy a toy. I feel bad I can’t be a better owner to him. At least I feel some emotion I guess, it’ll go away I am sure.

I am taking care of my friends kitties next week. I am excited for that, I really like them. I like my own cats too, just their 20+ pound cat always makes me feel better.

I was turned down for another job application, twice actually for one application lol, well okay then.

I shouldn’t feel the way that I do. I know I have worked so hard for so much and have come so far. I just can’t get out of this state. I hate it. All I have been doing is sleeping. I was asleep by 930 last night and woke up at around 10 today. I have drank a full pot of coffee almost, finishing up my last cup, and I am still exhausted. Please just some relief soon.

I am going to go shower, do the normal routine. I have a chicken breast thawing so I can wrap it in bacon and steam some vegetables for a nice low carb healthy late lunch. I’ll drink as much water as I can today. Have a good day everyone. I will be surviving.

Update: My hair is starting to break off when I comb it, this has never happened before, and I have been taking biotin everyday the past couple weeks, even upped it. Also my skin feels so itchy. Idk if these are withdrawal signs from hormones, just seemed relevant.

Published by unbreakablekitten

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