Day 8- A Shard Of My Past

  I have always felt in the way and that nothing I do is right. The few times I have felt I’ve done something decent have always involved some sort of sacrifice of myself. As a kid if I was unable to figure something out it would frustrate my parents, in turn, I would breakContinue reading “Day 8- A Shard Of My Past”

Day 7- Self-insight

  Turns out a good binging and purging session can have similar side effects of a hangover. Something strange happened yesterday that really made me think of why I binge and purge. I ate a breakfast I was satisfied with and felt great. I went to donate plasma and even bought a new pair ofContinue reading “Day 7- Self-insight”

Day 6- Irony

  A week ago, my focus was to document recovery from my eating disorder. To my amusement it has been about recovery from alcohol instead. I know I have said before they come hand in hand, but my goal was to be a guide to others with eating disorders. I am sure however there areContinue reading “Day 6- Irony”

Day 5- Another Birthday

Day 5 ANOTHER BIRTHDAY It is hard to celebrate a day when you have wanted to be dead many times throughout the year (and have come very close to being so). When I was a little kid, I remember thinking I would not live to be 27, now I am 28. It still often seemsContinue reading “Day 5- Another Birthday”

Day 4- Numb

I am not a fan of birthdays. Each one reminds me of every year of time wasted. Time creates barriers and washes away dreams. It keeps me a prisoner of my own body, waiting for the clock to finally end. I had originally written a lengthy blog about when my first purging session happened asContinue reading “Day 4- Numb”