Interlude?

Big eyes stare up afraid, cold eyes glare down She wants her mom, where is her mom? Non-understandable pain, all too familiar Realism drifts away, her safe place appears Verity drifts back, she no longer wants her mom, Crying, anxious, angry, cold, big eyes lose their innocence, Other kids are taught to dream big, SheContinue reading “Interlude?”

Day 20- Enjoy Your Saturday

This is my 20th day of opening up to the world and sometimes I feel more alone than ever. I have become naked and vulnerable and still feel hopeless anyone will ever truly understand me. A friend/follower asked me yesterday if I ever held my past against my parents. The truth is that I didContinue reading “Day 20- Enjoy Your Saturday”

Day 19- Side Thought

When anyone has ever asked me what my goals are in life I have always responded “to survive.” However now I am starting to realize that a goal of surviving means only to exist. After begging my body to let me die so many times I am realizing existing is not enough anymore. If IContinue reading “Day 19- Side Thought”

Day 18- World Doesn’t Owe Me

I am not sure I have mentioned being adopted but I am. There is a bit of irony in that because my birthmother gave me up so I could have a better life off the reservation full of substance abuse and in turn I get stuck in villages with sexual abuse. Adoption back than is notContinue reading “Day 18- World Doesn’t Owe Me”

Just Letting Time Do It’s Thing

Wow guys, so I know its been a few days since I updated but thats just because life has been pretty great. Since letting the universe take over and lead me rather than constantly fight it I just feel so much more at peace. So here’s a nice update, nothing dramatic for once LOL ExerciseContinue reading “Just Letting Time Do It’s Thing”