Day 24- Therapy

I had a little bit of wine last night, whether or not this was a good idea I cannot tell you right now. I do know that I was able to relax even though my mind never did fully shut off. I did not feel I needed it but thoroughly enjoyed it. I admit thereContinue reading “Day 24- Therapy”

Day 14- Fluke

  I have been contemplating going back to college to finish up my associate degree. I am a few classes away from obtaining it, so I am weighing the pros and cons. I was going for Biology and Microbiology but flunked/dropped out because I was with an abusive ex (yes, stupid, and it was honestlyContinue reading “Day 14- Fluke”

Day 12- Short & Sweet

  I almost forgot how bad a full-blown anxiety attack can feel and last night was not the worst one I’ve ever felt either. I am still happy my daughter’s mom came over to hold me through the worst of it. I do not remember all of it except the pain and coldness. My firstContinue reading “Day 12- Short & Sweet”

Day 9- Weak Little Girl

A little girl, barely 3 years old now, sits and cowers behind a sofa. The man is using the bathroom. She knows what he will do for he has done it many times. He comes out and calls for her. She pretends to play hide and seek, maybe, just maybe, she can make him notContinue reading “Day 9- Weak Little Girl”

Day 8- A Shard Of My Past

  I have always felt in the way and that nothing I do is right. The few times I have felt I’ve done something decent have always involved some sort of sacrifice of myself. As a kid if I was unable to figure something out it would frustrate my parents, in turn, I would breakContinue reading “Day 8- A Shard Of My Past”