Well, it has been a long stretch of days. I was so excited to get back to blogging and then I decided to get a viral infection and then finals happened and work became crazy overloaded. Everything has been going pretty well other than that, I am just very busy with life. I still have… Continue reading Hiya Peeps!
To all my readers I know I have not written in a while. I have been going through many changes. I took the leap to find a safe nice place that I can call home, and I did. I will take pictures later on. I just wanted my readers to know I am okay and… Continue reading Im Okay
I should probably make a clear explanation of where all my anxiety is coming from. I feel trapped as we all know. Work wise, I can't stand my coworker, even when she is having a good day. Honestly, the nicer she is to me the more I know she is talking shit about me. Not… Continue reading Crossroads
At times this world almost feels unbearable. Everything seems off and I cannot tell what it is. I feel scared and anxious. My thoughts are loud but I cannot understand what they are saying. Its like screaming but I cannot tell if it's someone elses or mine. It was a rough day today, I am… Continue reading Ready for the Silence
Inconsiderate, stupid, unstable, scared, messy, manipulative, wrong, selfish, anxious, sad, jittery, hungry, lost, unwanted, just a pretty face that will age, hard to love, outcast One of the ripple effects of having borderline personality disorder is not being able to keep friends. I am not sure how it is for others but for me, I… Continue reading Just Another Screw-up
I would love to b/p right now. I have been doing so good lately though. I think maybe I need to keep more snacks around, like cheese sticks or make some bacon wrapped jalapeno poppers. I could buy some Atkins chocolate shakes too for when I need something sweet and don't want to b/p. It… Continue reading Pictures of my Finger
I feel as though I am stuck in the middle of two versions of myself. The first is the victim whos every move was a ripple effect of trauma and survival. The second is a future survivor who has beat all odds to become someone great. I feel as if I am in some sort… Continue reading Who Am I?