Just Another Sitting Duck

An inch of progress on the outside could be miles on the inside. Garbage will always be garbage and garbage will always be given up on, maybe thats why we stay garbage. Soon to be more of us in this economy that will soon crumble by the looks of things. God only cares about thoseContinue reading “Just Another Sitting Duck”

Day 55- Chiropractor

Well, today was a pretty decent day. I may have drunk a little too much last night as I slept in till 11 but honestly, I do not feel anything negative with it. I definitely relaxed. I had eggs for breakfast with coffee and then went and had lunch with an old friend of mine.Continue reading “Day 55- Chiropractor”

Day 51- Trying To Stay Strong

I cannot say I am doing well; however, I can say that I am average. It is so easy for my daughters’ mother to say see a therapist, honestly though after about the eighth one I realized that the reason I can’t be helped is because psychology just isn’t there yet with understanding my trauma.Continue reading “Day 51- Trying To Stay Strong”

Interlude (?) Again

YOUR NOTHING BUT A STUPID FUCKING UGLY LARDASS PIG these thoughts ring through my mind as if you are still here i still hear you as i purge up this food GUILT- SO MUCH FUCKING GUILT people starving here i am wasting away food i need to keep food down I will change tomorrow willContinue reading “Interlude (?) Again”

Day 50- Frustration

I wonder if there will ever be a time in my life that I permanently want to live. Instead I feel like I am always fighting the depression of wanting to die. I know these feelings will always pass, normally after a few hours, sometimes after a week. I suppose there have been the timesContinue reading “Day 50- Frustration”