Life Comes In 3’s (Part 3)

Death has always been weird to me. I have never been able to express condolences appropriately. When a close uncle found out he had cancer my first words were “well, that’s what he gets for smoking.” I did feel bad but showing empathy has never been a strong trait of mine. It is also weirdContinue reading “Life Comes In 3’s (Part 3)”

Day 56- Another Direction

Could I one day feel normal? Is there a chance that I can be happy and not have all the weight of anxiety on me? Can I shut my mind off all the thoughts? Without the wine? WHAT IS LEFT? In order for one to be happy, don’t they need happy times? If I cannotContinue reading “Day 56- Another Direction”

Day 55- Chiropractor

Well, today was a pretty decent day. I may have drunk a little too much last night as I slept in till 11 but honestly, I do not feel anything negative with it. I definitely relaxed. I had eggs for breakfast with coffee and then went and had lunch with an old friend of mine.Continue reading “Day 55- Chiropractor”

Day 45- Its My Friday!

I woke up very off this morning and a tad bit emotional but physically feeling pretty well. I cannot wait till daylight savings time so its lighter earlier. I do get uneasy being out alone in the dark. I do not like the dark in general actually…. but enjoy night time in some contradictory way.Continue reading “Day 45- Its My Friday!”

Got Nothing Left Guys

I hate so much of myself these days guys. I see every bit of fat I have gained, I see nothing but an ugly useless native when I look in the mirror. I lost my job and am now jobless and might have to use welfare. I hate every single thing about myself. I keepContinue reading “Got Nothing Left Guys”