Im Okay

To all my readers I know I have not written in a while. I have been going through many changes. I took the leap to find a safe nice place that I can call home, and I did. I will take pictures later on. I just wanted my readers to know I am okay and… Continue reading Im Okay

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Ready for the Silence

At times this world almost feels unbearable. Everything seems off and I cannot tell what it is. I feel scared and anxious. My thoughts are loud but I cannot understand what they are saying. Its like screaming but I cannot tell if it's someone elses or mine. It was a rough day today, I am… Continue reading Ready for the Silence

There’s Nothing

I am starting to think these feelings are permanent. I feel myself building walls and pulling away. I don't like feeling anxious and sad. It was my own fault for trying. I have only ever been wanted to the extent of a fuck or too late and told sorry, normally still after a fuck ironically.… Continue reading There’s Nothing

Just Another Screw-up

Inconsiderate, stupid, unstable, scared, messy, manipulative, wrong, selfish, anxious, sad, jittery, hungry, lost, unwanted, just a pretty face that will age, hard to love, outcast One of the ripple effects of having borderline personality disorder is not being able to keep friends. I am not sure how it is for others but for me, I… Continue reading Just Another Screw-up

Not Sure Where To Go

Life is a game of pain and fighting to survive. I do feel very alone these days. With every fake smile I get more exhausted. I suppose I do deserve to feel the way that I do. I really am just a shitty shitty person. I am very selfish, I know. I still have a… Continue reading Not Sure Where To Go