Interlude?

Big eyes stare up afraid, cold eyes glare down She wants her mom, where is her mom? Non-understandable pain, all too familiar Realism drifts away, her safe place appears Verity drifts back, she no longer wants her mom, Crying, anxious, angry, cold, big eyes lose their innocence, Other kids are taught to dream big, SheContinue reading “Interlude?”

Day 19- Side Thought

When anyone has ever asked me what my goals are in life I have always responded “to survive.” However now I am starting to realize that a goal of surviving means only to exist. After begging my body to let me die so many times I am realizing existing is not enough anymore. If IContinue reading “Day 19- Side Thought”

Day 18- World Doesn’t Owe Me

I am not sure I have mentioned being adopted but I am. There is a bit of irony in that because my birthmother gave me up so I could have a better life off the reservation full of substance abuse and in turn I get stuck in villages with sexual abuse. Adoption back than is notContinue reading “Day 18- World Doesn’t Owe Me”

Just Letting Time Do It’s Thing

Wow guys, so I know its been a few days since I updated but thats just because life has been pretty great. Since letting the universe take over and lead me rather than constantly fight it I just feel so much more at peace. So here’s a nice update, nothing dramatic for once LOL ExerciseContinue reading “Just Letting Time Do It’s Thing”

Day 17- Inside My Head

I feel like every move I make needs to be calculated, as if the smallest mistake can bring down any sort of progress I have made. I have only been able to obtain so much of a good thing before I ruin it. The saying two steps forward one step back has always been moreContinue reading “Day 17- Inside My Head”