Day 14- Fluke

  I have been contemplating going back to college to finish up my associate degree. I am a few classes away from obtaining it, so I am weighing the pros and cons. I was going for Biology and Microbiology but flunked/dropped out because I was with an abusive ex (yes, stupid, and it was honestlyContinue reading “Day 14- Fluke”

Day 13- Firsts

  The first time I purged was as typical as any other persons first self-vomiting. I did it because I needed to feel in control of the chaos surrounding my life. It was an exhilarating feeling. It was actually pretty hard to do and hurt a bit, but I felt a short lived high. ItContinue reading “Day 13- Firsts”

Being Patient

Hey guys, how’s it going? I can say things are okay for me, mainly still being patient I suppose. So the weekend was good, I spent a good chunk of it detoxing from sugar and sodium from a potluck but Saturday I spent with my daughter and her parents as usual. It was mainly chill,Continue reading “Being Patient”

Day 12- Short & Sweet

  I almost forgot how bad a full-blown anxiety attack can feel and last night was not the worst one I’ve ever felt either. I am still happy my daughter’s mom came over to hold me through the worst of it. I do not remember all of it except the pain and coldness. My firstContinue reading “Day 12- Short & Sweet”

Old Writing I Found

Something I wrote years ago, I am a lot happier now obviously lol. I think it was around the time I was in the hospital, honesty not sure. These blank walls suffocate me. I stare out a barred window to a world outside that I’m denied by doctors. I yearn for the fresh air andContinue reading “Old Writing I Found”