Day 20- Enjoy Your Saturday

This is my 20th day of opening up to the world and sometimes I feel more alone than ever. I have become naked and vulnerable and still feel hopeless anyone will ever truly understand me. A friend/follower asked me yesterday if I ever held my past against my parents. The truth is that I didContinue reading “Day 20- Enjoy Your Saturday”

Day 19- Side Thought

When anyone has ever asked me what my goals are in life I have always responded “to survive.” However now I am starting to realize that a goal of surviving means only to exist. After begging my body to let me die so many times I am realizing existing is not enough anymore. If IContinue reading “Day 19- Side Thought”

Day 18- World Doesn’t Owe Me

I am not sure I have mentioned being adopted but I am. There is a bit of irony in that because my birthmother gave me up so I could have a better life off the reservation full of substance abuse and in turn I get stuck in villages with sexual abuse. Adoption back than is notContinue reading “Day 18- World Doesn’t Owe Me”

Just Letting Time Do It’s Thing

Wow guys, so I know its been a few days since I updated but thats just because life has been pretty great. Since letting the universe take over and lead me rather than constantly fight it I just feel so much more at peace. So here’s a nice update, nothing dramatic for once LOL ExerciseContinue reading “Just Letting Time Do It’s Thing”

Day 17- Inside My Head

I feel like every move I make needs to be calculated, as if the smallest mistake can bring down any sort of progress I have made. I have only been able to obtain so much of a good thing before I ruin it. The saying two steps forward one step back has always been moreContinue reading “Day 17- Inside My Head”