Day 54- Over Tired

When my pants rip it is a mortifying sign that I need to take the low carb healthy eating a lot more seriously and stop the B/P, because let’s face it, it only causes weight gain. I cannot say this is all an entirely bad idea because beer and malts are definitely not helping. So,Continue reading “Day 54- Over Tired”

Day 53- A Sweet Goodnight

Well, today was a fairly decent day. When I bought my new computer a few days back the time/date wasn’t set right according to my region, so I ended up having to set it manually, except I didn’t set the date correctly so I have actually been running a day ahead for the past fewContinue reading “Day 53- A Sweet Goodnight”

Day 52- Little Monster

There was once a little girl who created her own world, although it had no name, it was her safe place. She learned to escape to it when bad things were happening. It was beautiful and vivid, she could smell the flowers and the salty oceans, feel the breeze, watch the deep blue sky turnContinue reading “Day 52- Little Monster”

Day 51- Trying To Stay Strong

I cannot say I am doing well; however, I can say that I am average. It is so easy for my daughters’ mother to say see a therapist, honestly though after about the eighth one I realized that the reason I can’t be helped is because psychology just isn’t there yet with understanding my trauma.Continue reading “Day 51- Trying To Stay Strong”

Interlude (?) Again

YOUR NOTHING BUT A STUPID FUCKING UGLY LARDASS PIG these thoughts ring through my mind as if you are still here i still hear you as i purge up this food GUILT- SO MUCH FUCKING GUILT people starving here i am wasting away food i need to keep food down I will change tomorrow willContinue reading “Interlude (?) Again”